Decision

Two year ago this day couldn’t get here fast enough. Now that it was here, I wished it was two years away. I’d have more time to get my nerve up and walk away.

We started out blissful, it’s why I proposed after only dating a month. She told me she loved me, and that was it. I thought it was the end-all-be-all, and I couldn’t wait to make her my wife. Right after our engagement and moving in together, Tina changed.

It didn’t take long for my happiness to turn into resentment and regret. Tina began to plan my days, and make decisions for me; not to mention contradicting everything I said. I felt like a marionette, with her at the controls. She’d say something and I jumped, or had to jump to avoid her doghouse.

I wondered how it all happened. Tina took away my courage to stand up for myself, my independence. Was I so lonely of a person that I was willing to sacrifice my happiness just so I wouldn’t be alone? Standing at the alter waiting for the ceremony to start when I saw her out of the corner of my eye. I turned my head, and she smiled at me. I smiled back, and suddenly my courage came rushing back.

What was I doing? Being someone’s puppet wasn’t me. Without saying a word, I walked out of the church and into the bright sunshine. I stopped just outside the door, took a deep breath and continued walking without looking back. The best decision I’d ever make.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s